That's what I've become. Every time I go to the bathroom I close my eyes and hold my breath before I meticulously inspect the contents of my panties and then I do it again when I wipe. I haven't seen anything even remotely close to brown CM or spotting but I am so scared. Scared shitless.
I just dont feel pregnant. I barely have sore breasts, I haven't had one hint of nausea, I dont feel tired, I have no food aversions or notice more intense smells. Even the bloating and very mild crampy twinge feeling have subsided. And last night I didn't even have to get up in the middle of the night to pee. I do still notice the errect nips and very occasionally a twinge in the ovary area. I do kinda feel like there's a small water balloon in my uterus...I'm not able to engage my abs like usual and arching my back just a little feels like a big stretch for my abs.
Tomorrow is our first US. I will be 6 weeks and 3 days. We should be able to see a heart beat. I am so worried we won't find one. How awful that would be...on so many levels, the least of which would be having to get on an airplane and spend thanksgiving in someone else's house for 4 days waiting to have a miscarriage. I know, not a very positive attitude. Have you read my blog before? I'm not a very positive person, at least not when it comes to my IF.
So I am a ball of stress and angst and 9 am tomorrow can not come fast enough.