So today is CD 29. But because I had 8 juicy follicles ready to go and got a trigger shot on CD 12 that puts me at 16 DPO. I am sure my period is right around the corner but so far she's a no show.
This doesn't mean my hopes are up. This doesn't mean I am thinking about getting a pregnancy test. This means I am in "wear a panty liner every waking moment" mode. This means every twinge I feel in the low abdomen area gets over analyzed. This is probably the worst part of the roller coaster for me. I know I'm going to get my period but then it stalls and I start to let in just a glimmer of hope and then I get my period and I hate myself for feeling disappointed when I knew it was going to turn out that way from the start. Sorry for the run on sentence.
I even finally had sex last night hoping it would kick start AF. It had been a while. A loooonnng while. After our IUI and our two nights of BD after, I took my usual "do not touch me for 5 days (or more)" break. Then B got sick with a gross cold which turned him into a flemmy, coughing, snoting, sneezing baby. I wasn't going near that!
Maybe I will try it again tonight to try to get the next cycle started. I realized that if I get my period like right now then we can actually squeeze in our last IUI before we leave on our Thanksgiving vacation! I am really hoping that the timing works out and then all our IUIs will be done before xmas and we can just start fresh in the new year with a new plan.
Was just remembering how seeing that first smear of blood on my underpants or toilet paper used to make me feel so relieved. How times have changed.