You have to be fucking joking.

First I just want to say that two amazing blogging ladies have had some horrible news in the last week/12 hrs.  My heart is truly aching for Risa (who shot down my stork?) and Amanda (beloved burned toast).  I have only followed them briefly, since about mid April, but I have become totally sucked into their stories of pursuing IVF.  They are both lovely and courageous and I am feeling devastated for their losses.  I appreciate them being so open on their blogs about the trial and tribulations IVF leaves in it's wake.  I feel like when/if I take on IVF for myself I will be much more cautious with my expectations.  I have gained experience vicariously through reading their posts and feel like I will not approach IVF as naively as I might have if I hadn't followed their journeys.

OK, back to me.  (totally just kidding)

My last post was Tuesday after my ultrasound.  Remember I got a positive on the OPK on Monday night but it seemed very odd that I would be ovulating so early, it was CD11.  Then the next morning (Tues) I got a negative.  Very confusing.  I went in for my follicle count ultrasound a day earlier than scheduled to try to figure out what the hell was really going on.  All the follies were too small so they determined that I had gotten a false positive on Monday night and we scheduled another ultrasound to check in on the follicles for Friday, today.

So Tues night through this morning I tried a new method of OPK testing.  You know, just to drive myself insane with more questions and uncertainty.  I decided that my new OPK reader was faulty.  But I wasn't 100% sure.  I still have the old reader from the last box that I used for two cycles.  You know how it says on the box that it's only good for 30 days after opening?  I don't buy it.  I mean, I buy it but I don't believe that it stops working after 30 days...I think they just want you to buy another box even though you have more sticks left over.  And just to prove my point, the newest box of OPK that I bought now says that it's good for 2 months so I think my suspicions are correct.

Well I decided that I would pee on two sticks at once and compare the results.  One old, possibly expired reader against one new, probably broken reader.  I'm a genius.  Let the good times roll! 

Here are my results from Wed afternoon:

Helpful, right?  I think the positive was the old reader and the negative was the new one...

Here are what the lines looked like:

I decided to compare the lines from the last few days:

I know it's hard to see the lines...it doesn't matter.  There is no rhyme or reason to them anyway.

I literally got a positive and a negative one time and then about 4 hrs later they flip flopped!  I decided to not even try to explain what was going on with my nurse.  It just makes me sound like I don't know what the hell I am doing.  I went in for my ultrasound today and thank god she didn't think that I had ovulated yet!!  She counted a bunch of follies on my right side but they were all too small.  She found two on my left, the biggest was 23 and the other 16!  I was a little bummed that there are only two but I am happy with the size.  I have had 3 that looked like they were going to mature but my ultrasound happened further away from my trigger shot and IUI so they were just guessing at which ones would actually get big enough.  For all I know none of them did.  So I am pleased that I know for sure that there are two that are mature and have potential!  I got the trigger shot right after the ultrasound and just got our appts. for the IUI scheduled for tomorrow.  Third time's the charm...right?