This is going to be a quick post. Last Thursday at my midwife appt. I did the 1 hr gestational diabetes test. I didn't really want to do it in the first place but my midwife talked me into it with a list of reasons why it was important to know because of health risks to the baby. So I did it. And then on Monday I found out I failed it. Passing cutoff is 139 and I scored a 155. So my midwife wants me to do the follow up 3 hr test.
I don't want to. There are many, many reasons why I don't want to. I wont go into all of them but I do think the test is flawed and the chances of me actually having GD and there being health risks to the baby are so low I don't feel like it's worth doing.
The shitty thing is that now that I failed the first one my choices are take the 3 hr test and cross my fingers that I pass or find a new midwife who is comfortable with me declining the 3 hr test and follow the GD diet AND test my blood sugar 4X a day. Obviously they have me cornered. The easiest option is to just take the 3 hr test and hope I pass and this all goes away.
However now I have a bad taste in my mouth. I am bitter and frankly angry that midwives/Dr.s can manipulate you into compliance whenever they feel like it by simply uttering the tag line "it puts your baby at risk". Who wants to be told they are a shitty mother before the baby is even born? I feel like they are not giving me a choice. I suppose I could call around and see if there is a midwife out there who has no problem with me skipping the 3 hr test but if they also want me to prick my finger 4X a day is it really worth it after I feel like I have already gotten comfortable with my current midwife? I don't think so.
So I have been bullied into taking the damn 3 hr test on Tues. I know that the majority of women who fail the first test go on to pass the second. My midwife said only 4-8% of women fail the 3 hr test. If I do fail the 3 hr we will try to control it with diet and exercise (which I am already basically doing) and if it's managed then I can still have a home birth. My midwife said in 8 years she has only had to transfer 2 women to OB care.
The other really frustrating news is I got my iron levels checked and they are lower than the last time despite religiously taking my iron supplements! How the fuck is that even possible? Don't explain it to me, I don't care. I was already anemic to start with so my midwife cautioned that we need to get them up to higher levels or my home birth might be jeopardized. Double fuck.
My thyroid results came back normal so at least there's that.
We have our 30 week anatomy scan scheduled for this Friday. If we don't get good news there I am preparing for a full on melt down. Please, please let Hazy have had a growth spurt! Even if she hasn't moved in percentiles at least let her be the same but just bigger all around. I have been obsessively doubling my protein intake every day and last week at my midwife appt. I was measuring 2 weeks ahead so I am really crossing my fingers that means she has grown.
I hope we get some good pictures of her which of course I will share with you! Hope everyone else is having a better week than I am so far!