I actually haven't even bothered buying or using a pregnancy test in probably over a year. I was so tired of the crushing disappointment every time I saw the negative symbol I just decided to wait until I got my period...which has always shown up.
Last Friday I was waiting for my period to arrive but I knew the weekend would involve friends and drinks. So not wanting to miss out on blowing off some steam and enjoying myself (every one's favorite advise is to relax, right?) I decided the responsible thing to do would be to buy a pregnancy test and see if it would be ok for me to drink alcohol....or maybe it would be the best weekend ever because I would finally see the little allusive plus sign that has been haunting and teasing me for the past 3 years!
On the other hand, if I got a negative I knew my period was about to show up any day and I was out of tampons. This is how I ended up standing in line at the checkout with a box of pregnancy tests and a box of tampons. FML.
I took the test on Friday and as I have come to expect, it was negative. I made the best of the situation and drowned my all too familiar sorrows with a delicious handmade (by my multi-talented husband) fresh squeezed grapefruit margarita. So good!
The weekend came and went and no sign of my period. By the way I should mention that lately my husband has been asking if my "red flower has bloomed" because we started watching Game of Thrones and that is a line the Queen asks Sansa when she gets her period, lol! He makes me laugh.
By Monday I felt a little ovary pain. My periods are so different since my surgery in July. I used to have the worst cramps, I would be incapacitated and throw up they were so terrible. As soon as the surgery was done I have barely felt any cramps at all! It is amazing and makes the surgery totally worthwhile just for that relief alone. So I felt a little something happening and was thinking "ok I'll get my period tonight or in the morning for sure". Well I didn't.
My husband asked if we should take the other pregnancy test but I told him no. I didn't see the point in wasting another test when we can just wait it out. Especially since the test on Friday was clearly negative. So I held off until tonight. I came home from work tonight at 7:30 and decided to just pee on the stick again because where is my fucking period?! Since Mon I have felt nothing in the way of cramps or anything else. So weird.
I peed on the stick and again it is negative. As usual I feel stupid for letting that little bit of hope creep in. I mean I got a negative on Friday, what was I thinking had changed since then? Maybe it's the Letrozole that I am taking? It didn't delay my period the first month. I will probably get my period in the morning.
At least I have the tampons.