Super fucking PISSED!

Gaaaaahhhhhhh!  Fuuuuuuuuuuck!  God damnit, god damnit, god fucking damn it!  I want to punch someone in the face so fucking bad!  IF once again proves to be nothing but bull shit. 

I spent the morning calling my nurse, calling my financial counselor at the fertility clinic and calling her supervisor.  I am beyond irritated.  Those bitches are making me skip a whole cycle!  I am trying to put it in perspective and move on but I am pissed!  Here's the story. 

We started our IUIs in May.  We have done 5 total.  Our insurance company first said it wouldn't pay for them, then said they would and then said they wouldn't.  Our balance kept changing and it was confusing.  We would go online to pay our bill and there wouldn't be a balance.  I would write a check and it would get returned because we actually didn't owe anything.  And then two weeks later we would actually owe something.  At least 3 times while leaving one of my dozens of appointments I have checked out with a finance counselor and talked to them about it. 

The conversation went like this 3 times:

Me: I have no idea what we owe...it keeps changing. 

Finance counselor:
Hmm, this is weird.  Don't pay anything today and I will call your insurance and
find out exactly what they are and are not going to cover and we will get back to you.

Me: Ok, but you are not going to send us to collections or anything, right???

FC: *Laughing* Oh no!  Don't worry about that! 

Me: Ok, let us know....

Three times we had this conversation.  With a couple of different counselors so it's not like one person was doing a bad job. 

Here's Problem #1:
I start my period after IUI #5 is a BFN.  I call the clinic to report CD1 with my nurse and book my FSH shot for CD9 and US on CD14 (I am busy on CD12/13 when they normally schedule it).  The receptionist politely tells me she needs to transfer me to finance so I can take care of my balance before she is allowed to book me anymore appointments!  I am blacklisted!  Those bitches put me on a blacklist after telling me not to worry about it!!!  Why didn't they tell us there was a limit that prevented us from booking appointments?  I would have been much more on top of figuring out the bill if I had known they were going to cut me off.  We knew we were going to owe something and were just waiting for someone to tell us an exact amount that wasn't going to change for the hundredth time.

Here's Problem #2:
We have been planning on paying our balance with our insurance credit card.  Our insurance Co. gives us roughly $5000 at the beginning of the year on a credit card.  We can use that money to pay for any medical bills that are not covered by them.  The problem is we haven't activated those cards.  We have just been paying our medical bills out of pocket because so far it's only been a couple hundred bucks at a time.  So just activate the cards you say?  Shouldn't be a big deal right?  My husband calls them on Sat. and finds out that because we waited too long to activate them we now have to have new cards issued to us and it takes 2 weeks for them to be processed and delivered.

Cue me throwing tantrum and getting super pissy at B because I am annoyed that I have to be responsible for fucking EVERYTHING!  Why cant he have just dealt with this weeks ago!  I have been making passive aggressive remarks about how we need to activate the cards because at some point they will want us to pay them.  He would just agree with me but never did it.  It's not like he said he was going to do it and that was our agreement but for fucks sake, why couldn't he have just done it back in Aug. when I mentioned it like 25 times?  It's so annoying.  And of course he is all defensive and keeps saying "don't act like this is my fault!  You could have called them too!"  Oh, yeah, I should have called them to activate the cards in between getting my vagina poked at with a catheter, peeing on sticks every fucking morning, getting my blood drawn and having my Clomid hot flashes.  Yeah, that seems fair.  

 So now the deal is we owe $900 and I cant make that payment until the insurance card arrives in the mail and I call them and activate it and until we pay our bill we are not allowed to make any more appointments.  This means I will not be starting my second round of Clomid today like planned.  We have to skip this month which makes me really, really unhappy.  I wanted to power through this and be done with it.  I am so sick of all the fucking appointments and pill popping.  I wanted to get 7 IUIs done with and fucking move on.  I am so pissed and annoyed about having to take this cycle off it makes me just not want to do anymore drugs or IUIs and just call it done.  I hate that B's attitude is "well we'll just skip this cycle and do it again next month!"  Like it's not a big deal.  I don't know what else to write....I am just pissed.